medley

i wake in the dawn to showers of light
moments of emptiness around
floating away with auras of hope
but reality brings me to the ground

empty -- that's how i feel right now.. sbb?? (hmm.. should i state the reason, here??).. feel so lonely.. there's no other's around.. (x pe la.. bak kate nur, kt kubur nnt pon sorg jgk kan.. *sigh*)

it's kinda weird.. there's lots of people in my facebook members, so do with my friendster, the phone list, ad so,, but i'm feel nothing right now..

tp x pe la.. esok BALIK... wuwuwu.. the one n only time for this semester to go back home.. haha.. (hey, should i change my mood now.. cz tomorrow will be a big day..)

berkecamuk hati, hatinya sendiri,
persoalanya kini, sampai bila mampu ku bertahan
mampukan ku bertahan????
wowo..
Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
wowo..
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu..

sbb yg paling crucial that lad me to be like this was .... hmm.. well, u'know.. students,, life is very challenging, especially for my course that recuired me to do lots of research, presentations, studies, and so forth.. then ad la yg mmg suke take advantage on others.. mmg buat hati ni berasap, feel like wanna scream all over at his/her face.. org len sume all out buat keje, ko dok rilek2.. (hello kwn, be sensible la.. name pon group project kn.. GROUP.. no free-rider r allowed k.. mmg la the other mmbrs n me doesn't complained about this terang2an, cz they all already know u.. plus, u've grown up kan.. klu x beso2 lg, just grow up kiddo.. that's my advise.. sndr fkr la.. kene marah kang, x psl2 x bertegur smpi graduate.. tp rmi yg ble sedar kot thru my face expression.. it's can't lie..)

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can’t do it alone I’ve tried
And I don’t know why

life is sooo maze.. well, lenka's right.. to much to be explored.. hv to learn how to gone through it cz we can't always hv anybody with us at all time.. kadang2, the people yg ad dgn kite plk berstatus questionable.. (bkn nk kate peopel in my circle is that, but we hv to be aware la kan.. let say dioeg tetibe ad hal len ke, cm ne ???)

i must admit you were not a part of my book,
but now if you open it up and take a look,
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter..

well, maybe u r part of my boo, buat just a little sspace for ya.. it is enough kan.. cukp2 la 'menyenangkan' aku.. i'm tired of all this.. i need a live, geek.. so like u..

hmm.. i've blabering much i guess.. till we meet again ya my diary.. (though it doesn't hv any note like 'i've-meet-my-crush-today', still it is a place where i can split out all my mind.. ho huat feeling k..)

songs:
empty decorations
dugaannay - hujan
the show - lenka
never knew i needed - ne-yo